
I've been thinking about my longing, and lack of longing for God. God's Word uses great emotive language regarding longing for, loving, adoring, seeking, wanting, desiring God.
To be honest, I don't know many people who do any of that to the point of it moving us emotively. Sure, most of us who try to follow God do so with conviction, resolution, making choices that reflect a true value and will to do what He expects and wants.
Yet, let's get damned honest... we have little understanding about the real longing for God. We suck at it. I say that to Charismatics, Evangelicals, Mainliners, Libertals, Post Moderns, Catholics, etc, etc, etc... We all suck at it. Very few, let's say .0001% have a clue about really longing for God until it moves us, really moves us emotively. I see it in myself and in my own highly committed "intentional", missional community.
No? You disagree? You're offended... Okay. Let's try this on for size... When is the last time you longed for God so much it physically impacted you - really impacted you, or moved your emotions, say like...
1. Desire to do your favorite hobby?
2. Desire for sex ...for the married of course. :-)
3. Desire for a favorite food?
4. Longing for a loved one missed?
5. Longing for stuff, money, position, change, etc.?
6. Longed for the same deep way we long for food when we're starving from whatever craving and not having eaten enough? Very few of us have a clue about a longing past missing one, maybe two meals... the ongoing day in, day out, week in, week out, months long craving for food...
You see, we don't know how to long. When I've had people tell me about fasting, it is to "focus and pray more". Huh? Ever fasted? It's harder than ever to pray and focus on God... you want FOOD - ANY food! When you go hungry, you quickly find yourself obsessed, really moved emotively, physically, mentally... You understand longing.
Anyone ever felt that urge sexually? Sex is probably the second most powerful longing/urge/desire known to the human condition. Some might argue the absolute most driving force, with food being second - just more frequent - to most of us anyway. :-) I know, embarrassing. Read this alone, then. No human adult (or teen guy) can deny this overwhelming, consuming, compelling urge and desire. Harnessing it is like harnessing a whale! It is so fierce, the longing controlling and even driving our thinking, our emotions run a muck... We become obsessed and long. Would it be possible to long for Him the same way. So often God discusses His longing for us, our supposed longing for Him in very strong language. Dare we even discuss Song of Solomon? The powerful imagery, the strong language used is surely about the maturing human marriage relationship, but is a shadow as so much of Scripture tells us about our relationship with God. Note God's language about His hurt over Israel's prostitution worshiping other gods.
Is it possible to know and love God to the point that we are not ideologically driven, but we love Him and are compelled from a love, a longing for? Can we become lonesome for "home" to be with Him. When I read about eternity and the supposed "joy" of being with Him, worshiping, knowing, understanding, and en-joy-ing (en= in) I have often over the years, I confess, not felt that to be a draw card. Sure, the escape from hell. That's a nice retirement bonus, but the after life never held such a draw. Paradise does, but the "being with Him" was a bonus, not the center. Am I the only carnal saint out there? I am not there now, not all the time anyway, but I confess, to "want to worship endlessly", to want to know and be with Him still needs more development in my focus, paradigm, understanding, context, relationship with the Living Creator God. He has my hairs counted.... REALLY!? Wow. I love my wife, my sons, my community... I have counted no one's hairs. Every hair? Wow! That's obsessive compelling love.
Now, when is the last time you really fasted and bridled that longing, that real tangible grip on longing for something and intentionally turned it towards God and longed for Him?
If you don't fast, I suggest it? If you are like me and "Decided to Follow Jesus" but seldom long for Him... Hmm. You know, when God tells us how He longs for us, and our relationship is a personal real relationship, it involves longing.
It's no wonder we long for so much here, and not Home...because at the deep real level, the emotional level, we don't necessarily consider Heaven our home... we don't long for Him and therefore, don't long for "home".
What are you longing for?
A good micro Beer? A nice wine?
A new ____
?
A boy friend, girl friend, a friend?
Hmm.
Me too. BUT I am aware of it and working on it.